Caravaggio, Prozac and Me

Feedback from Remi

I started a course, at my local college entitled painting and drawing from scratch, in July last year and with the help of my teachers there realised I had an aptitude for painting that had lain dormant for my entire life.I didn’t paint at school and am now 49 almost 50 years old. The course lasted 3 weeks and after it finished I was addicted.

I signed up for another course in portraiture which is charity funded, as I suffer from depression.
Painting and drawing helped draw out of my negativity and had helped me stop using Prozac.

I was spending my time sampling techniques, materials and different media and was keen to try everything I could but however recently I’ve felt a little low and my Practice has been suffering. Nonetheless, I realise that in an ideal world this is what I would like to do, moreover I want to be better than proficient.

I feel I love art and am in awe of the great masters and contemporary ones too.

I think the “contemporary old master” is Caravaggio because of his use of light There are many others as for me they share the same space in terms of their love for the craft it feels absolutely heart wrenching to have to choose.

My main challenge is to lose paralysis that comes from thinking I'm no good, my biggest challenge is silencing the critic that has arisen since I discovered a love for art.
I would like to learn how to depict, silver, water, glass and use light more convincingly.